First Day of Cleanse-Done!

woohoo!

I know i shouldn't be this excited, but day one is done. I started the cleanse today, and things went well. It makes me think that MAYBE I can actually do this. Which would be great. It's all about controlling myself and not letting food control me. I just hope that I can stay in control, and not let the power of cravings overcome. 

The other thing I'm scared of is going out with friends. I feel like I can do this on my own, but once there are friends around, eating whatever they want, it's going to be so much harder. It's going to look so stupid when I can't eat anything and they're eating blooming onions, cheese fries, and chicken wings. 

I guess I'll just see what happens when it happens. I have to do this for myself.

Here's my day of eating & cleansing:

-3 pills in the morning of something (when i have the bottle in front of me ill edit)

-1 pill in the morning of something else ("")

-1/2 cup of scrambled egg substitute

-1/2 orange

-thermo boost water enhancer

-salad: cucumbers, lettuce, corn & fat free ranch

-baked chicken with garlic, cayenne pepper & herb seasoning

-3 pills of something

-thermo boost water enhancer

-orange pepper slices

-baked turkey burger

-corn & lima beans

-3 pills of something

It feels good to know that nothing in that list is too high in calories, and I've been pretty full all day. The only thing that I've had to deal with is craving something crunchy or chocolately... and I'm always craving sushi, so that's not new... but all these cravings seem stronger when i know i CANT have it. Before starting the diet, it was always an option (which I usually followed through on) but now I cant... and I've always had this thing where i always want what i cant have...

Anyways, it was a good day, and I feel good. I know I can do this, and I have to do this.

Oh BY THE WAY i gained 3 pounds over the weekend :( So now I have to lose 56 pounds.

So... here's my ticker!
I'm ready to start losing weight!

Tomorrow I start...

So I havent written for the past few days because I have been pretty busy, and I haven't really started my diet yet, so i was waiting until that started before I got into this. Tomorrow morning I start the three day cleanse... and I want to tell myself that it's only 3 days and its going to be easy... but then I think about if I have that self control to do this or not. I hope I do. I keep reading all these weightloss success stories and I just want to be one of those.

Check back tomorrow night with details about how my first day of cleanse went.

First Day... kinda

My name is Anony Mous, I'm 22, and I live in Denver, Colorado. :)

This blog is going to be my journey to losing the 53 pounds I need to lose to be at a "normal" weight. (not sure why i put normal in quotations, but that's just what the person and slimgenics called it.)

I went to slimgenics today to have a consultation, and it was very interesting. During the first 20 minutes, she made me very hopeful & motivated that I could lose the weight... I broke down, cried, laughed awkwardly, and then listened to her talk about the program. Then very abruptly, she told me how much it would cost-
"Well normally with the amount of weeks this will take and supplements and starter pack and blah blah blah it would be $1200, but I'm going to cut the amounts and blah blah blah and I'll make it $596...so do you want to put it on credit card or write a check?"
(I almost walked away because of how pushy she was, but i was incredibly vulnerable and really, willing to do anything to lose this weight... So I tried to haggle a bit)
"Well I saw on the website that if I booked online and came in that day that I could cut $100" -me.
"Oh, well um ok, well, ok then I guess the price is $496."

I kinda reluctantly paid with credit card and then she brought in all the supplements and starter kit that they give you. I'd like to think that this woman really wants me to lose weight, but her fast jump to paying kinda threw that feeling off. Hopefully it comes back... I can't imagine someone working at a diet center hoping that people fail.

You start out with a 3 day cleanse program and then really start the slimgenics process.
I'm starting the 3 day cleanse on Monday (7.26.11) and then my journey begins.

I plan on using this blog to talk about the difficulties and also log what I eat. If I eat it, I know ill have to blog about it... which hopefully will help me show restraint with what I eat. (yikes)

Sooo even though I'm not on the diet yet, i feel like I should share what I ate today:
-Yogurt
-fruit
-coffee (with cream)
-more yogurt (its the only thing i had at work, and slimgenics lasted my entire lunch break)
-more fruit
-ruffles with onion dip
-pasta with garlic cream sauce & cheese
-a few cashews
-a few shrimps
-a little jello snack

Weird, huh? Yeah I know.
I'm a weird eater... I don't know how I became such a slave to food, but I did. I lose all control around food and it just completely jumbles my mind. It's like food is some crazy drug, and im hoping slimgenics is kind of like a rehab for me.

I just want to be happy. I want to wear the clothes I want to wear. There are so many cute outfits I want to wear, but I spare the public the disgustingness they would witness if I wore these outfits. I want to think about something other than how fat I am. I want to be free from my own hell that I've built for myself. I want to love myself.
I will do this. I WILL DO THIS. I have to do this.