First Day... kinda

My name is Anony Mous, I'm 22, and I live in Denver, Colorado. :)

This blog is going to be my journey to losing the 53 pounds I need to lose to be at a "normal" weight. (not sure why i put normal in quotations, but that's just what the person and slimgenics called it.)

I went to slimgenics today to have a consultation, and it was very interesting. During the first 20 minutes, she made me very hopeful & motivated that I could lose the weight... I broke down, cried, laughed awkwardly, and then listened to her talk about the program. Then very abruptly, she told me how much it would cost-
"Well normally with the amount of weeks this will take and supplements and starter pack and blah blah blah it would be $1200, but I'm going to cut the amounts and blah blah blah and I'll make it $596...so do you want to put it on credit card or write a check?"
(I almost walked away because of how pushy she was, but i was incredibly vulnerable and really, willing to do anything to lose this weight... So I tried to haggle a bit)
"Well I saw on the website that if I booked online and came in that day that I could cut $100" -me.
"Oh, well um ok, well, ok then I guess the price is $496."

I kinda reluctantly paid with credit card and then she brought in all the supplements and starter kit that they give you. I'd like to think that this woman really wants me to lose weight, but her fast jump to paying kinda threw that feeling off. Hopefully it comes back... I can't imagine someone working at a diet center hoping that people fail.

You start out with a 3 day cleanse program and then really start the slimgenics process.
I'm starting the 3 day cleanse on Monday (7.26.11) and then my journey begins.

I plan on using this blog to talk about the difficulties and also log what I eat. If I eat it, I know ill have to blog about it... which hopefully will help me show restraint with what I eat. (yikes)

Sooo even though I'm not on the diet yet, i feel like I should share what I ate today:
-Yogurt
-fruit
-coffee (with cream)
-more yogurt (its the only thing i had at work, and slimgenics lasted my entire lunch break)
-more fruit
-ruffles with onion dip
-pasta with garlic cream sauce & cheese
-a few cashews
-a few shrimps
-a little jello snack

Weird, huh? Yeah I know.
I'm a weird eater... I don't know how I became such a slave to food, but I did. I lose all control around food and it just completely jumbles my mind. It's like food is some crazy drug, and im hoping slimgenics is kind of like a rehab for me.

I just want to be happy. I want to wear the clothes I want to wear. There are so many cute outfits I want to wear, but I spare the public the disgustingness they would witness if I wore these outfits. I want to think about something other than how fat I am. I want to be free from my own hell that I've built for myself. I want to love myself.
I will do this. I WILL DO THIS. I have to do this.